This year has had it's own list of challenges and struggles. 2020 is likely to make the history books as the worst year in American history. It has to at least rank in the top 3 for anyone alive. Or at least anyone who has survived up to now. I know this was a record breaking year for me.
Firstly, I started this year as a stay at home dad. Not a very profitable job, but one that I take great pride in. In June I took a leap of faith and started school at Full Sail University. I've dreamed of going to school here since 2009, before my son was born.
Attending Full Sail is great, but the fact that I have a GPA of 3.92 is just the absolute best feeling in the world.
Then, I went through the worst summer of my life. I ended up spending time in a mental health facility. I spent about 6 days in there and took that time to take care myself. I really managed to use that time to open my eyes and fix the issues that I had plagueing my mind.
Chief among those issues, the divorce my ex-wife had expressed her wanting. So, I spent the next month and a half fighting to see my children. That is what lit the fire under me. I'm not a very spiritual person, but I prayed one night. First time I prayed in years. The following day I was blessed with 3 interviews and awarded 3 jobs. I chose 2 and got my hussle going. I juggled 2 jobs and school for about 3 weeks. It took a lot out of me, but it also gave the money required to get a lawyer on retainer.
Having the attorney was enough to show the ex how serious I was. Thus, I was awarded again. This time with 2 out of 3 of my children. They've been with me since late September. We've had a great time. We had a Foxy and Wonder Woman for Halloween. We got nice and plump on Thanksgiving. And today, we celebrated Christmas together. Tomorrow, for the first time since their mother dropped them off with me, they are going to stay with her. While, I mildly trust her, I don't trust her boyfriend at all. He has pictures promoting anarchy and chaos, he has some with him wearing the nazi SS emblems, and he has more that just aren't comforting to know my children will be around someone like him.
The benefit I have now, is I've met someone who is almost the complete opposite of the ex. Someone who's thoughtful and caring. She's nurturing and kind. Even though I've only known her for a number of weeks, I trust her inexplicably. So, while I'm fully aware of how lost I'm going to feel next week without my kids, I'm positive she'll be there as my compass. She is the best present I could've gotten this Chistmas. Especially since the present she got me was my own Dundie and a certificate stating I was the best human.
So, with the end of the year coming to a close, finally, it's important to weigh the good with the bad. And with all the bad that this year brought for me, I think the good outweighs it all. And I'm super grateful for that. All of this comes down to one thing; Happy Holidays.
School starts again on January 4th. The day after my birthday. Let's hope that the bad that came with 2020 doesn't realize that time is relative and let's us have a better year than this one. Just don't expect it to do it for you. You still have to make things happen for yourself.
Love, Peace, and Chicken Grease